Sometimes I doubt whether I truly believe in God. I certainly don't act like I believe all the time. It's so easy to get wrapped up in the world, in other people, in trying to get ahead and be better than someone else. If my behavior doesn't show that I follow Christ, it makes me question if my heart really follows him.

I'm disgusted with how judgmental I've been of others lately. I find myself being so rude to people and acting like listening to someone else talk is a wrench in my day...like I'm too important to listen to your story.

Oh God why do we need to study Christianity!? I'm not a Christian I just believe in You, for me its not a sin. its the best thing I discover in life

I went to church when I growing up and it was all so fake. The church isn't there to help you. Especially once my sister died. That changed everything for my family. My parents saw that all the church wanted was their money. I never had to go back again, and that was fine with me. The church was created to just get power and control over people.

I spent a lot of my life being mad at God - well, really mad at "church". My church upbringing as a child didn't help. I spent a lot of wasted years and energy being disgruntled, but also feeling an ache, a hole, an emptiness.

Meanwhile, I was highly judgemental of those "Bible beaters" when, in fact, I was envious. I knew that they did not have perfect lives because they were believers. I knew that they experienced pain, disappointment and rejection. But I also saw them handling these things we all deal with in life differently than how I was (or wasn't) dealing with them. And I wanted what they had.

The Holy Spirit worked in my heart and I have known the love, joy and peace of Jesus for about 10 years. I still wake up some days and say "Me? Really?" But I know how much more peace I have and that is an amazing gift that I pray everyone will come to know.

I talk about myself a lot, often making excuses for myself for whatever reason. I know I do it because of some sort of insecurity, but knowing doesn't help, it almost makes it worse. I end up talking even more. What really gets me is that I don't like it when other people talk about themselves all the time, which makes me think about how I talk about myself all of the time, which makes me talk more. It's very frustrating.

I can tell it annoys other people, and I don't want to annoy other people. I wish people understood this about me, but I am afraid to explain it because it would be more talking about myself.

With the New Year upon me, I realized - especially with a few days away from my co-workers - that I get frustrated and judgmental and angry when I do my job right and then have to fix what they didn't do right for whatever reason: ignorance, laziness, inability to find the right resolution... I get angry for our customers - that they should be subjected to this and judgmental of them. They must be stupid - after all, I get this stuff, it's easy for me. I forget that God made each of us in His own image, and when I cut down another person with malicious gossip, I'm insulting His creation.

Sorry I was a jerk.

It seems like the more I try to do what I think is right the more judgmental I am of others. I quickly set up standards that others fail to qualify for and I in turn fail to realize that I don't even meet my own standards most of the time. Yet, harsh words and thoughts come to me almost instantaneously when anyone does anything that bothers me personally.

I have a problem with listening. I'll be in a conversation with someone and as soon as they say something which I have a story about or an opinion, I stop listening and start waiting for my turn to talk. If it takes too long, I'll break in and cut them off just so I can speak. Often I come loaded with things I want to say.

I hear people say "I have no regrets". How ridiculous is that? I have thousands. All I can hope is that I'll have an opportunity to re-play those situations in my life some day, and not regret it again.

when you teach in the inner city, it's very easy to paint rather distorted pictures of the kids' lives... especially when the kids are reluctant to tell you what is going on in their lives. and then it is hard to figure out what is making them act out in certain ways.. and sometimes, it is easy to assume they are just plain acting out and there is no reason behind it..

it's hard to have patience some days.. a lot of days, actually.. but when i remember it's about God -- more of him and less of me -- then the patience is more easily found and shared. when i remember to count my blessings, i am more capable of sharing my blessings with others. however, when i dwell on the negative events in my life, pitfalls, downfalls, letdowns and other such instances, it's easy to look at life with tunnel vision towards negativity rather than through the lens with God's perspective.

john 3:30 he must become greater. i must become less.

I now realize that I have been a very judgmental person throughout my life. I was an athlete in high school. Captain of the football and basketball teams and made it to state in track. Although it was a time that built my confidence I also used that confidence in ways that put down others internally, and even worse publicly. I think most people did not see me that way because I was good at looking good to people in general but there were many that I hurt with little remorse.

Throughout the next 12 years I have gone through many humbling moments, but the biggest one is figuring out that I am not the best. There have been people who are faster, stronger, knew the Bible better, smarter, more talented, and better looking. After these realizations, I have spent much time reconciling myself to those whom I hurt and to date I have had "atonement" moments with at least 10 people whom I know I hurt or at least I had judgmental thoughts about. What a joy to hear words of forgiveness for this the "Chief of Sinners" May we all realize that we are not the greatest and are all in need of humility.

All too often I have validated myself by comparing my life to those of other people. I justify my actions by telling myself, "Well, at least I don't do..." or "Have you seen what that person did?" My fear is that in my self-justifying behavior I have alienated a lot of people along the way.
  The reality is, this is just a mask. It is a mask I put on to make myself feel okay. I think a lot of Christians make the same mistake I do, and try to hind behind the thought that as long as I live better or more godly than someone else, I must be just fine, and then we never examine the nasty list of of things that we have done wrong against God, and against our neighbor.
  I want to say though, this has NOTHING to do with Jesus Christ and his message. Jesus says, "Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye?" He essentially asks us, "How the heck can you point out one sin you might have seen someone else commit, when you know all the sins that you commit?"
  I am sorry for all the ways I have misrepresented Jesus. I am sorry for not being honest about the fact that I am broken and sinful. I am sorry for acting like I don't still need to be saved from my sins each and every day.
  I pray that anyone I may have wronged would come to know that my prideful, arrogant ways are not the ways of Jesus. I pray that anyone who has been wronged by myself or other Christians, might one day see the true, transforming power of Christ's love. And I pray that all Christians, myself included, might start representing this true love, which begins by being honest about who we are, not puffing ourselves up into something we are not.

Sorry, I was a jerk